I’m behind. Big shock there, I know. I made it to 36.500 yesterday and today I don’t feel like writing, which is bad…so, so bad. I really doesn’t help that I don’t have the faintest idea about what I should write and my characters are too busy jumping each other(dear God, they’re worse then rabid rabbits). And I cannot write another sex scene because:
1. I just can’t. My brain will explode.
2. They are in a car. A moving car. A moving car that one of them is driving. Which makes sex a bit difficult.
3. I am starting to think it is humanly impossible for two people to have sex as often as these two do.
4. I would like to have some actual plot(as much as one can call this whole thing plot).
5.My brain will explode(did I mention this before?).
I will probably wait twenty minutes and do a one-hour word war against myself, see if I can beat my previous record(set yesterday- 1189 words in an hour). I hope I’ll get at least 1000 words( and get to 40k until I go to sleep).Wish me luck…
So...I just wrote the following paragraph :"The black walls are covered with [SHAMELESS WORD PADDING ANYONE? MUST REDO THIS PARAGRAPH] yellow and red curtains, and the dim light barely shines through the curtain of smoke that fills the crowded place [STUPID NON-SMOKING LAWS BE DAMNED]."
Sad.
But still fun as hell to write. And I will not have my characters run outside to smoke every five minutes!
…that contrary to what I believe, people actually need sleep once in a while. Amazing, I know…. I also heard that you can’t live of lollipops, chocolate chip cookies and industrial amounts of coffee. But I am going to keep trying because, well, life’s more fun this way. The fact that I can’t seem to turn my mind off for five minutes so that I could actually have a shot at falling asleep might also have something to do with it.
Recap time, kids: I haven’t slept in…oh…quite a number of hours. I haven’t eaten any real food in more then that. I want coffee. My ADD is kicking in big time and it's bringing my dyslexia with it.I am pumped full of pain medication because my damned leg hurts like hell. Conclusions: not in a very chipper mood right now.
At exactly 10 PM I am going to bed and I am going to sleep even if it kills me. I have stopped any caffeine intake (in any shape or form) five hours ago. I figure that by ten my brain will either shut down and allow me to sleep or my eyes will start bleeding. I’m fine with either one. But look on the bright side…I had 30.020 words on the twentieth. Hurray!
On a non sleep-whining related note: today I wanted to kill of Abby. I was writing a scene and I had this impulse to have a truck run over her. I stopped myself...but I do feel bad for wanting to do this.Not having written mysteries or horror in a while is taken it's toll on me.
Sorry for the annoyed post, I needed to vent a little. My happy self will be back tomorrow,fully rested and without wanting to kill any more characters(hopefully).
But apple lollipops do make life so much better. :)
One of my personalities(let's jus call it 1): Yey...another post in less then an hour...procrastinating much?
My other personality(obviously 2): I am not procrastinating, I just can't focus on those two.
1:...Sure. And I believe you.
2: You should. What are we going to do with them?
1: Kill them?
2:You're way to violent lately.Anger management classes?
1:They deserve my wrath.
2:Oh, come on...it's cute.
1:It's annoying.
2:Cute.
1:Annoying.
2:Cute. And stop it before we get commited.
1:I was going to say that.
2:Well great minds think alike...wait...something's wrong here.
1:We're just one mind, you moron.
2:Oh,yeah...*blushes*
1:*headdesk*See what I have to put up with every damned day?
2:Not every day...remember that time when you locked me in the besement?
1:Yeah...that was fun. Now let's get back to deciding.
2:Like we'd ever agree on anything...let's just see how it goes. Maybe they just like each other...and that's it.
1:Do you believe yourself?
2:Nope.
1:At least you're not a complete idiot.
2:I think we started this because we wanted to brag about something...what was it?
1:Huh...I don't remember.
2:Me neither.But it was important, I just know it.
1:Or it was just another form of procrastination.
2:Well besides the fact that we can't decide what we're going to do with Abby and Chris,we still haven't decided what's going to happen on the fourth day.
1:Huh...really?*smacks 2 over the head*
2:Auch...that hurt!
1:That was the point.
2:But...why? I'm telling!
1:Cry baby!
2:Am not!
1:Are too. And if you say anything else I'll smack you again.
2:*shudders and runs to hide*
1:So...I'm finally alone. Yeah...I wanted to brag. I still don't have the courage to check the word count but I know for sure that it's over 26k.Hurray!Now please excuse me,I have to find that idiot and get back to work.
So...my characters are stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid and stupid!
They are falling in love. Well, great! The two morons just shared a moment...adorable if this was romance. But it's not! Only one of them was allowed to fall in love and that was the worse case scenario! But do they listen? Nooo...that would be so nice, simple and easy! Having characters who don't drive you up walls! Hah...what a dream!
And the saddest part of it all is that I can't do anything to prevent it. Now anybody who has tried writing something bigger then a shopping list will tell you that characters sometimes have their own minds. And now my crappy not love story is turning into a crappy love story.Never mind that they've known each other for what...three days?Who cares? Love conqueres all!
I am so pissed that I didn't even check my word count...so I can't tell you if I won my own challenge or not.I hope I did...But for now my biggest concern is what I am going to do with these two idiots.
And I take back what I said earlier...the true sad part of it all is that, with my rant and everything, I am still "aww"-ing in my mind...and think it's adorable.
But please...next time I try to write a novel, please remind me not to listen to sappy music and, if possible, have only one character!
*headdesk*
So my favourite word of the day is "uh".Which is not actually a word but that's not important.But I've used it so much it's starting to bug even me,and I love repeating words.The risks of NaNoWriMo.
Anyway, the not daily update: I have hit 20k.Which is...wow!It took me almost 5 months to reach that many words in one of my fanfics and now I've reached it in less then 20 days.I'm still behind but catching up.Which is good.Otherwise I'd have to sit on the floor on my ass and cry.I'm hoping to reach 30k by the 20th.That's 3 days.But what the Hell...Nothing ventured,nothing gained,right?And if I do get there in time I am going to reward myself with...something to be determined as of now.Because seeing as I'm basically broke my choices are rather limited.But I'll figure something out...just have to get there.My 20k reward was a new coffee maker.It's black and shiny and I love it.
And I think I've reached a new level of madness...I relax from my nano by writing my fanfics.Is that crazy?I want a new chapter by the end of this weekend.Which is crazy,I think.Wait...I know it's crazy.But that's never scared me before.
Yup...another random thing that I've decided today:if I finish my nano I'm going to print it so that it's easier to edit.I hate editing on the computer...the red pen works so much better when I'm buchering my own work.
That's about it.I'm going back to writing.
Hurray for the first post this blog not begging anyone to kill me!
This does seem to have become my favorite phrase this month. I am an awful procrastinator. The worst I know. But when I get an idea inside my head it won’t just go away! I’ve tried putting them on the back burner, arranging them in a circle and demanding that they wait until December, begging them to wait, falling on my knees and imploring…No such luck. So as I struggle with a novel on which I am way, way behind, 3 fanfics for 2 different shows, real life and all that crap this whole new fanfic idea is burrowing inside my head, trying to get me to write it. And I am weak…so of course I’ve started writing it. And what does it do? It leaves me in the middle of the first chapter. Now I normally wouldn’t mind this, as the folder filled with unfinished fanfics, one-shots and whatnot, can tell you but this fic was keeping me awake at night! And now, after an amazing paragraph, it leaves me hanging. So now I’m trying to focus on the novel until I get a new wave of inspiration for that particular story, or any of the others that I’m writing at the moment. Thank God I have my NaNo planned out, otherwise I’d be dead right now. Now I just have to get the words written down…Huh…if only it was that easy.
On a side note, I have developped a reward system that will hopefully get me to the end of my Nano...I'm not allowed to watch House until I finish at least my word count for the day...And tomorrow I'm going out and buying a new coffee maker...Ups. It seems the last one has commited suicide. I wonder why?
Well,you see,before I started NaNo I actually had hope that I was going to make it to the end.But after a week of partying,a test,drinking and oh,yeah,procrastination at it's highest,I am nowhere near where I was supposed to be.But no worries,my darlings,because it will be done even if it kills me(or so I say now...ask me again in a week).
Other then that...pretty much nothing.Now I could spend a few more minutes writing something stupid or I could actually go back to staring at my novel(who's still mocking me).Decisions,decisisons...maybe I'll check a few games sites before...just for inspiration!*Bad,bad Addie*I know...I'll go make some more coffee and then get back to my writing.Yeah...but what about that new game I saw a few minutes ago...?
I take back what I said earlier...it will never be done!
Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to mourn the loss of my free time. It's officially November and I am...well...offically stuck! 10 hours in to the project and I've written exactly 517 words and now my brain is dead, Billy(my muse) has abandoned me, my main character refuses to understand that Abby sounds to much like Addie and that stupid word document is staring at me and I swear it started mocking me about 5 minutes ago!So everything is going just according to plan.Please shoot me now!
